Dear Friends,It is with sadness of heart that I write to you today. Last Monday (January 9th) I resigned as a missionary with ____ and have now returned to my mother's home in _________.I felt that it was necessary to resign due to a series of bad decisions that I made that led me into grave sinful practices. Even though I kept in regular contact with other christian workers, I effectively hid it from them all.Starting on December 31st, a series of events began that led to me realizing the need to confess my sin. I want to ask each of you to please forgive me for violating your trust.Please pray for me as my life is very dark at this time.Sincerely,
Four lessons I see:
- Do I pray for the spiritual health of my missionary friends, or just for their work?
- Do I think I'm invincible, that "it will never happen to me"? As Paul said, "Let him who thinks he stands take heed lest he fall." (1 Cor. 10:12)
- Do I pursue relationships with people who will know me well and ask me hard questions?
- Perhaps most importantly, am I treasuring anything in my life more than Jesus? All falls into public sin begin with private wandering of affections.
I want a principle within of watchful, godly fear,
A sensibility of sin, a pain to feel it near.
I want the first approach to feel of pride or wrong desire,
To catch the wandering of my will, and quench the kindling fire.
From Thee that I no more may stray, no more Thy goodness grieve,
Grant me the filial awe, I pray, the tender conscience give.
Quick as the apple of an eye, O God, my conscience make;
Awake my soul when sin is nigh, and keep it still awake.
Almighty God of truth and love, to me Thy power impart;
The mountain from my soul remove, the hardness from my heart.
O may the least omission pain my reawakened soul,
And drive me to that blood again, which makes the wounded whole.